there is a hole in my chest,a cavernous,empty thing and i sit and wonder "do i have a chance to fill it","do i deserve to fill it","can i fill it",and if it realy comes down to it do want to fill it.I have lived so long with with my being as it is alone but in some way whole but i know that is a lie because i have seen the truth i have felt its touch,it taste,and basked in its warmth and i have felt its sting its cruelties and the pain that it can inflict is worse than any i have encounter before but is knowing that your going to feel these things these "disgusting" emotions these beautiful emotions is it worth it to shut yourself off from t